MuSiC oF mY LiFe

~~Saturday, March 26, 2005~~

heyz, back. Aft 2 days. Not much completed still. Ha. Feel lyk studyin, den when flip to e pages, den sian DIAO alr. haha...whoopz, wad's happening? Tis kinda cow arh, really hard to discipline, deserve to get butt kicked..haha..

after being persuaded by a fren to go for her church production, i relented n went tis aftnn. Said she had sth to pass 2 me too. Ha. Met her at 2+ and watched the production, its v well done actually. haha. props, music, acting all can say quite gd! Haha, din expect such quality 1. haha. Oh n she gav me a pink bone cushy..for no reason...haha..*hugz* oh n bought 2 virtuoso XII tix! haha..so jus reached hm n ate dinner. so, u c, a fruitless day cos nv study again today but gonna do so later if i can. haha.

anyway, its weird...issit the weather or jus stress? So many pple seem to b fallin apart. torn from decisions, mixed with emotions, annoyed wif pple, confused wif life. i c pple ard me suddenly hav urge to find gf/bf...its funny that they jus crave for it so much tt i find tt sometimes their actions r kinda despo. haha. Hw r u gonna rush these things man? Take it easy...u r gonna find it somewhere somehow. Shun qi zi ran lor. Of cuz when u c ur chance passing by, dun lose it if u wan it, but dun try too hard, it turns pple off...haha...and pple ard u will jus get irritated cos u can jus go on n on abt u n ur targets yeah? haha.

and no doubt, i m always confused wif my life de somehow lar...in different points of my life. hah..jus when tinks seems clearer, a hard knock by a rock makes my vision blur again...haha..v pei fu wif pple who can list wad they wanna achieve and do it sia... they seem to be able to manipulate their life, lyk they can predict wad's up next for dem. haha..whoa. last time, i haf BIG dreams of wanting to b in e top league...or a surgeon..or even an engineer lyk my dad!(Gosh!) Den when rock struck, i start to hold MEDIUM dreams...haha...of jus wanting to be in a be a normal doc...haha...Den another rock struck, and now i m left wif my SMALL dreams...haha...of scoring WELL..enuff to further studies n get a job in e science field...and wadelse, play my guitar well. haha...we all haf diff. defination of success to us lar...so...yeah..haha..*glancing at my stated SMALL dreamz above*..tink i m starting to set ACHEIVEABLE dreamz..haha...zhen mei zhi qi. hahaha...

Tink i m getting quite loner le...haha..naz evolution...haha...i can jus spend my time, playing my guitar in 1 small corner of my room and not having e urge to go out. haha...city buzz and i jus wan time to me n my guitar. Sorri if i AP some of u all, tink i've caught the laggin bus n need some space for my vacuum brain. haha...*left it too long in e toilet* haha.

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[FoR U]: Evocation of emotions tt arose..haha..ya make my heart sink n float...my words aren't coming out as smooth as i want it to be but i can tell ya its been different since u're here. Tried taking tinks in own hands..tried making life easier for ya but guess i was wrong yeah? Hope u've gt an idea of nw since tis aftnn yeah..guess its jus low self-esteem tt's been overwhelming me. Its nothin too ashame to admit to ya but i m a cow wif low confidence..haha..despite my doubts my hope still dances becuz of...u..Muackz!

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